Eeeeek!

So this is the scene at my apartment this morning at 3:00.

I'm sleeping peacefully, dreaming about puppies.  All of a sudden, Corry starts thrashing around SCREAMING at the top of his lungs!  (AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!)  Of course this makes me sit up and start screaming too!  (AAAAAHHHHHHHH AAAAAHHHHHHHH!)  And hyperventilating because I just got woken up from a deep sleep by a grown man screaming.  I grabbed his arm and started shaking him, (at this point we're both still screaming.)  And he sits up, opens his eyes, screams for a few more seconds and then slowly realizes he's awake and stops.  I'm still hyperventilating.  "Holy crap!  What's going on?!"  I say.  He then explains that he had a dream that he was a little kid, and he was sleeping down in his parent's old cellar.  Apparently the cellar door kept popping open, and he was trying to shut it but something kept pushing back from the other side.  This kept happening until the final time, when it popped open before he got back to bed.  He saw that the door to the upstairs of the house was open and he realized his Dad was probably up there.  He also realized that what kept popping open the door was a demon.  At that moment,  I think he saw the demon, and he knew he couldn't get upstairs to his Dad, and he tried to scream but his throat felt closed and he kept trying and trying until he could, but then as he was waking up he saw that our bedroom door was open, and he thought I was the demon grabbing his arm...needless to say it was a scary night!  We prayed together for protection from evil and for good dreams and good thoughts and went back to sleep...but I feel so bad for him!  He said he hadn't felt that scared since he was a little kid!  I thought, wow I know that exact feeling.  Anyways, now I'm wondering if I shouldn't get this apartment blessed.  Why are he and I both feeling so scared of demons?

Jobs and Wedding

I found a job today for Corry in Madison, and my heart is racing with hopefulness.  It's a loan professional position and it offers GREAT benefits.  Benefits so good that I wouldn't be scared about getting married.  One of the reasons that I worry about that now is I would lose my health insurance.  But with this job, seriously everything would be so much better.  It looks like we'd be making at least twice as much money and getting these benefits...I'm just leaping out of my skin!  He's also probably getting a promotion at his current workplace though, so f this job doesn't work out at least he'll have his current job to fall back on.
Also, speaking of weddings, I've just been wedding crazy ever since I found my dress!  I have everything all planned out, I just have to convince Corry that my colors are better than his one color...forest green.  That terd.    

If anyone wants to look at my wedding planning crazy-ness look here at this link!!

http://pinterest.com/emmaleejune/wedding/

Spiritual health and good self-esteem.

Two nights ago before bed Corry turned on a movie called, The Rite.  I groaned inwardly because I could tell by the title that it was a scary movie and I don't like scary movies.  Especially before bed.  Anyways, we watched most of the movie and it really wasn't that scary.  It was a supposedly "true" story about demon possession.  Anyways, he gets tired when there is 20 minutes left of the movie and turns it off.  I went to go to the bathroom, and I felt paralyzed by fear.  Like I said, the movie wasn't that scary, but this wasn't, "creep-ed-out-by-a-scary-movie-scared."  This was fear like I haven't felt since I was a kid.  Like shaking, hyperventilating silent tears scared.  Corry just told me I was bonkers and prayed for me calm me down, and he also accompanied me to the bathroom and checked it for anything scary before I went in, stood outside the door for me and then walked me back to bed.  (He's so sweet and accommodating of my craziness...)  Anyways the next morning this really disturbed me.  I thought about the movie, and it didn't make me scared.  I couldn't understand why I had reacted so strangely.  I told my mommy about it and she said that I must have been spiritually scared.  And last night when we finished the movie, I thought, she must be right.  They say that the way to keep from being possessed and to be able to exorcise someone who is possessed is to have complete faith in God.  I think watching that movie made me scared that maybe I don't have complete faith in God, and maybe because of that he's not here for me.  I mean, do I trust God to make sure that nothing bad happens to me?  Really, I don't.  I want to, but experience tells me that is just not the case.  I think he has better things to do than to intervene every time something bad is going to happen to me.  Do I have enough faith?  It's a weird question.  I'll keep praying for willingness to change and to grow closer to him and hopefully I will.
In other news my wonderful friend Tiffany sent me two beautiful dresses, (a blue vintage taffeta shirtwaist dress and a pink floral number with cute little cap sleeves and a set of vintage pearls!!!)  I feel so blessed to have her as a friend.  She's been going through some stuff that I really understand and empathize with, I think she could use some prayers and some blessings because she is so wonderful!  I will post pictures soon!  Another blessing, I have something to wear to the wedding shower I'm apparently, "planning" for Kristy (Corry's brother's soon to be wife) and to their wedding!  Yay!