I love my Mommy!

Lately I've been thinking a lot of my Mom.  She is my best friend in the whole world and I love her very much.  Since I've moved out though, we haven't seen much of each other.  It's weird to not come home every night and spend time with her.  Now we see each other maybe once a week, other than when she comes to pick up the kids and even then it's only for a few minutes.  The other day we got the opportunity to spend a WHOLE DAY together and it was GREAT!  We laughed and joked and talked and it was just really nice to see her...I'm going to miss her when she moves to MN.  But I'm glad for her that she gets to go back home, and excited for the new possibilities that might meet her there.  I guess I'll just have to move there too!!

STRESS

I feel like my stomach is in my throat and I'm choking on it.  Corry and I can't seem to be nice to each other the last couple of days as hard as we try.  The culprit, stress.  Centered around money, as usual.  Only this time the problem isn't me not working, it's me working.  Once again a friend of Corry's mom has asked me to do some quickbooks work for him.  I'm happy to enter receipts and so on, but some of what he needs is me fixing his W2s for his workers and figuring out his taxes.  I told him last time he asked me to do this that I really don't have the experience and I didn't want to do it.  I told him entering receipts is fine, but anything that could put him or me in jail over is not.  Well, he went to his sister who is a CPA and asked her to do it, but she's right in the middle of tax season herself so she didn't have the time.  So he came back to me and told me that if I called his sister she would help me with any questions I had.  The problem is, I have questions about EVERYTHING.  He had been doing his books himself for a while and the numbers are totally wrong.  I don't have all the tools I need to fix the wrong numbers and even if I did, the work is TEDIOUS.  It just makes me want to cry and pout, but I know that this is a good opportunity and so on....I don't know.  I'm just all jumbled.  I am going to try for this guy, but if it gets to be the end of this week and I still don't know what I'm doing he's just going to have to figure something else out.  I don't want to be responsible for putting anyone in jail.  Well, sorry for the whining fest.  Some "good" news from me is, Corry's X-Box was broken for a while, and we had tried for a long time, (unsuccessfully,) to fix it.  So since we couldn't get it to work we were going to take it back apart, make it look like we hadn't been messing around with it, and send it in to Microsoft, where they'll fix it for $100.  But Corry decided that before he took it apart again he'd plug it in and test it one more time, and miraculously, it worked!  I don't know how that even happened but it was pretty cool!  That's $100 saved!  Hooray!

Another day...

Today I'm watching Taylor again, and he's feeling better which is a relief.  Today browsing through Netflix trying to find something for him to watch I kept seeing things that reminded me of when Abbe and Luke were little, and then of Maurissa and Me being little.  Abbe LOVED Elmo, Blues Clues, Veggietales, Max and Ruby and Cyberchase.  Luke loved Bob the Builder, Thomas the Tank Engine and his Creepy Creatures.  Maurissa and I watched pretty much every Disney movie religiously, The Land Before Time, Barney, Kidsongs, Lamb Chop, Mr. Rodgers, Sesame Street (back when it was still AWESOME!)  Anyways that just got me thinking about the things I want Corry and My kids to see someday...I want them to watch learning about letters and learning about numbers, I want them to see Thomas and Mr. Rodgers and all the kids shows we used to watch that weren't all lights and colors and no imagination.  I even think what Abbe and Luke watched as kids was better than the popular kids shows today...at least they taught them about good things.  Anyways, another thing I was thinking of is Sleep Sound in Jesus.  Before I really knew how to pray I was listening to that before bed and it was very comforting.  Needless to say I'm feeling really nostalgic today...If only for one day I could go back in time and spend a day pretending with Missy, or cuddling with Abbe and Luke.  I feel really lucky that I had such a good childhood and that I have such great memories of it.  I miss those days, but it makes me feel happy that I can someday try to be as good of a mom as my Mom, and that my babies will have a good daddy like Corry, awesome grandparents like Karen and Wayne and my Mom, aunts and uncles like Abbe and Luke and Maurissa, and even the BEST Great-Grandparents in the world!  Mamma and Grandpa Jim.  I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful family. 

Working it!!

So the last two days I've been babysitting, which is nice because it gives me something to do during the day and also because it gets me up and moving.  I've gained quite a bit of weight since the pregnancy and I've been looking to lose it.  So when I put Taylor down for a nap I've been going on netflix and working out to the workout videos they've put on there.  I've been doing pilates the last couple days and I feel GREAT!!  I have a nice, constant burn in my muscles that I haven't felt in a long time, and there is so much stretching involved in the workouts that my muscles also feel all stretched out and great.  So I'm pretty sure after a couple months of this, even if I don't lose much weight I'll be stronger and that's a good goal!  I don't necessarily want to get thinner, just more toned and strong.  That way when Corry and I do decide to try again for a baby, I'll go into the pregnancy healthy and strong.  I always thought that I hated working out but I've really been enjoying it the last couple days...I hope I can stick with it.