Be patient with me.

I have been really struggling learning to be more disciplined.  In a lot of ways.  I went to the doctor the other day, and I'm 170 lbs.  That's the heaviest I've ever been.  Also, just the simple matter of keeping the apartment clean sometimes seems like too much.  I've been trying.  Last night I got the apartment totally cleaned.  I cleaned the floors, the walls, the furniture...it feels nice to be relaxing in here today now that it's so clean.  It SMELLS great too, I didn't realize how gross the house smelled until I got it cleaned up.  : /  So I could use a prayer for that I guess.