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All I can think about is babies.  I'm sure this blog is looking a lot like how my mind feels.  It doesn't matter where I am, everything makes me think about the baby Corry and I lost.  I keep wanting to try again for another one, even though I know the timing is all wrong with our financial situation being like it is.  I just want to know HOW I'm supposed to move on and forget about becoming a mother?  For months all I seemed to talk or think about was becoming a parent.  It was something that made Corry and I both feel better about our lives.  It was a dream of ours that was coming true.  We know that we'll never be rich, but knowing that we could be parents was really comforting.  So what now?